I miss g. I miss home. I miss my dog. School is fine, but I just want to cry.
I feel so lost, so disconnected. But I believe that this was the right choice. It will take me to new places, to new things. Just more choices to have. It's only a year. But I want to go back home. I want to hug G. I want to be held. I want to feel peace. I want Maple to be there greeting me when I drive up the hill. IT'S SO UNFAIR. IT MAKES ME SICK. WHY IS SHE GONE?
I'm happy with the stuff I'm going to learn. And I think I can manage financially. Although I'm not totally sure. I will pray though.
why can't things just be fine? Or are they fine? Am I just not seeing them as such?
I know I have great friends. My friends, knowing that they exists, is keeping me sane. Maple is such a friend.. and even though she's not here physically, she's with me in spirit. But I can't believe it. IT'S SO SURREAL. I want to be held.
I'm looking outside for the peace I should feel inside of my heart. But whose to say how things should be?
peace.
om.
peace.
om.
peace.
om.
peace.
om.
I love you Maple.
I love you G.
and everyone else too. I love you.
