I just read a book about a boy and his quest to discover his treasure - a personal legend. It was very helpful for me to see how his story unfolded. I feel I'm in a similar place as him... being presented with the opportunity to follow a personal vision, and taking it, despite of losing so much. I couldn't believe how much the character ended up losing in his life just to get to the goal. Am I willing to lose so much? I think I'm scared. There is fear in me..
What do I fear?
1. that I will not get there...
2. that I will not be accepted
3. that I will lose the things I have and never be able to get them again
4. that time is passing and that I am getting old.
5. change
6. failure
7. being lost
8. being a loser
9. truth
There was a beautiful passage in the book where the character talks to his heart. His heart tells him that it sometimes says things that are not as true as they could be, mainly because the heart doesn't like for us to feel conflicted, or feel pain, so it almost has to lie to us, or stop talking to us.. because we've stopped listening, and we've stopped being true to ourselves.
I have stopped being true to myself and now have to take drastic measures to regain my truth.
A particular character in the book also stuck with me. It was a man who, despite of knowing what his dream is, decided not to pursue it. He preferred to just keep it as a dream and keep living life as he was. I've had to ask myself if I want to pursue my dreams. And what my dreams are. I used to be much clearer on this, but now I'm in a fog.
It's time for me to return to the clear.
As a side note, I found this site today. It's well designed. I like this author very much, but he is not the author of the book I was just talking about. I guess then I should mention what book I AM talking about... it's The Alchemist by Paulo Coelho.
Anyway, so now for this side note link.. http://www.eckharttolle.com
